I couldn't remember this address, but thankfully, a link I had given to someone brought me here. That is amazing, because I needed it. It's amazing how things just work out sometime. That is a small blessing.
My life continues to be crazy. There is never a dull moment. Sometimes I am thankful for that, sometimes I am not. I am taking my life off hold today. Waiting for a cancer diagnosis will do that to you. Getting a you do not have cancer diagnosis (for now) will free you. Sure, they may want more tests, I'm not certain I'm down with that. I will take that as it comes. Until then, my life has been reclaimed. It's the only one I have and waiting for a phone to ring is always a waste of life. There are no words to describe hearing your doctor be perplexed at your test coming back as NOT cancer. I have known for weeks in my heart and soul. I didn't just come to that conclusion, it came to me. Literally. Laying in bed after my fine needle biopsy. I felt someone lay with me and put their arms around me. It was the best feeling ever. It was, until Dante jumped on the bed and scared my guest away. I did confirm it was not anyone in the house- and as much love as there is here, I knew it was not the kind of love given on this earth. From then, I knew I was going to be fine. Ok, in God's hands I always know whatever it is I will be fine... but I knew I wasn't going to have cancer. The signs kept coming, not just to me, but those around me. So many, they could not be ignored. It took almost 3 weeks, but it was confirmed, no evidence of cancer. My doctors believe in medicine. That is great, it isn't perfect. I believe in Jesus, He is. Unexplained by science, I'm ok with that. I know where the good news came from. I knew it, I believed it, I told the doctor I felt it was so. He basically thought I was a moron. I was right. The authority I had was MUCH greater than what you get from attending medical school. When he returns from his leave he will get a simple note. On the outside it will say, "Thank You" and on the inside it will say "... for being wrong." Part of me wants to go into details and part of me thinks it may be rude. I don't know. I'll pray on that. I'm just going to be happy and start living my life. Dental appointments, haircuts, and all the other things that seem insignificant until you don't know if you should make those appointments. Today, it's a big deal. I have a lot to celebrate. Things I never would have, I will. To be blessed like this... wow. Me, He chose me to look over and protect so much. No better feeling than that.
With that, I am out of here. I have a life to live.
